I don't give fake apologies. I don't say things i don't mean so i don't apologize without meaning it.Understand that i think about things and analyze things on different levels. I guess you would call it compartmentalizing. I can give a heartfelt apology for upsetting someone even though i don't feel that what upset a person was not such a big deal then post about not understanding and analyze that on another level but it does not lessen whatever apology i make. I guess that could come off as double talk or being hypocritical. I guess being of a more rational or analytical mind set i just don't take things as personally as some people do. I tend to think more in "the grand scheme" of things and little things that apparently seem to offend some other people on a personal level just aren't worth it to me. Anger and always looking for things to be angry about, and letting it get to you, hinders your ability to practice compassion and loving kindness.I did used to be like that however. After 4 years of meditation i just see things a little differently.So someone makes a snarky comment. So what? How does it REALLY matter? If someone calls me an asshole, so what? What is it really hurting? My ego? My pride? To me ego and pride are intangible illusions of the id. How do you hurt something that is an illusion?
Well i guess a deeper understanding does come with a certain level of seeming detachment in certain ways. It's possible that such a thing could lead to saying something that could be taken in a way it was not intended by people who are emotional on a more base level. I don't know.
Looks like i have even more to meditate on.
Please let me clarify. When i say emotional on a base level i don't mean stupid or primitive. I just mean people that let their emotions rule their rational mind more than is healthy.
ReplyDeleteWell more than is healthy is a relative thing. It's not healthy for anyone to hang onto it at all...
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